Beginning of the End.....

Have you ever found yourself cornered in a 3x3 meters four-walled room? You squat in the corner with your head bowed down, praying and cursing, hoping and feeling dejected, all at the same time. Desperately hoping to find a way out!!!

Then you realize the damned walls converging on you in a menacingly slow pace. You think to yourself "Do I really deserve this? Just when I thought my suffering was coming to an end, seems like something in me is still left to be sapped out. Fate is not yet finished with me."

One by one, the memories of a happy time not so long back in the past, flash through your tired mind. And you sulk as you recollect every happy moment, regretting that you could have relished them a bit more."If only there was a way I could go back to those times. I could have made the most of it. Could not have taken things for granted or could have told the friend I hurt that I was sorry or spent some more time with my girlfriend on her birthday and bought her the pink shoes she always wanted or taken my family for a vacation. "

As you get drawn back into reality, your palms sweat and a tear quietly escapes your moist eyes. "Tears?? I thought they had dried up long back." You can hear your own breath getting harder. And you sense the feeling that you are so used to now, fear!!! "Whats in store for me? Am I gonna die here?? Will I get a second chance??"

"I understand the pain of my suffering is a way for me to realize my mistakes. But, is it too late? Or am I being punished for something I havent realized yet.
I close my eyes and let my mind wander once again into asking questions. Is this all a dream? How I wish it was! For now, I am gonna breathe and hope....."