Have you ever found yourself cornered in a 3x3 meters four-walled room? You squat in the corner with your head bowed down, praying and cursing, hoping and feeling dejected, all at the same time. Desperately hoping to find a way out!!!
Then you realize the damned walls converging on you in a menacingly slow pace. You think to yourself "Do I really deserve this? Just when I thought my suffering was coming to an end, seems like something in me is still left to be sapped out. Fate is not yet finished with me."
One by one, the memories of a happy time not so long back in the past, flash through your tired mind. And you sulk as you recollect every happy moment, regretting that you could have relished them a bit more."If only there was a way I could go back to those times. I could have made the most of it. Could not have taken things for granted or could have told the friend I hurt that I was sorry or spent some more time with my girlfriend on her birthday and bought her the pink shoes she always wanted or taken my family for a vacation. "
As you get drawn back into reality, your palms sweat and a tear quietly escapes your moist eyes. "Tears?? I thought they had dried up long back." You can hear your own breath getting harder. And you sense the feeling that you are so used to now, fear!!! "Whats in store for me? Am I gonna die here?? Will I get a second chance??"
"I understand the pain of my suffering is a way for me to realize my mistakes. But, is it too late? Or am I being punished for something I havent realized yet.
I close my eyes and let my mind wander once again into asking questions. Is this all a dream? How I wish it was! For now, I am gonna breathe and hope....."
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well said my friend ...some memories, nostalgic ..it is ..u alwz wish u had more ....but remember ...the lesser... the more happier .and the 'wanting for more' alwz remains .....I remember one of those ....'shakespeare one' ..somewhere in one of his play's.don't remember the name ..but it goes ..." there is always real happiness in anticipation of joy than really attaining it "......keep going dude ....
Dont do this to urself is all i can say. Knowing u, u've been the best friend, the best son and the best man anyone cn get.
And u dont have to regret bout ur past. Coz we often do what we think is correct at that moment. We cnt always do things thinking of what we're gonna do or think in the future right? Tab jo theek lage, karte hai. Bus. :)
So keep smiling meri jaan. Aap itne bure bhi nai ho. And only gud will happen to u. No doubts! :)
Nicely written .. The grief and despair engrosses the reader ... go ahead nd buy the pink shoes .. its not too late .. ;)
OH my my.......wat emotions!!! is dis u??? kitna dard hai inn labzon mein. musukurao dost.....yahi dard ki dawa hai.
Like Mohanlal said is some movie... "Some dreams and pains are to be locked up at some remote corner of your heart. And its beautiful to open em up once in a bluemoon while you're all by yourself." Read it and then sleep over it.
Well written!
There is just one word for this; "The-PAST". Being mortal fools, all we can do is either of these two things:
1. Cherish your memories
2. Learn from them
Take care :)
This reminded me of my good old days and I wish I had spent some more time with my boyfriend learning to play guitar... Or got him his fav toy car... He isn't with me anymore... I don't know whether I would meet him again... I don't know what is in store for me tomo... Everyday when I wear the watch he gifted, the thoughts abt him touch me like a gentle breeze... I would love him forever... Thanks for bringing those memories again to me... Continue the good work!
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